Shunkashuutou

Last entry ever in my blog. Seriously I can’t think of any reasons to update the blog anymore. If it invokes some bad memories, why not just discard it? Lots of things has happened since my last post.

I’ve gotten used to my job and I just received my 1st pay !

I’m barely on speaking terms with my dad.

My lifestyle is kinda healthier these days. On most days I would be in bed by 12.30am. Even on weekends I tend to wake up no later than 10am. You know what? It feels kinda good staring at the sunlight outside my house at 10am in the morning. God knows how long its been since I’ve actually woken up that early on a weekend.

I’m much more careful of my spending. Now I have to worry abt household expenses, transport expenses, daily meals( since I always have my meals outside), insurance and cigs. I’m really seriously thinking of cutting down on my cigs intake. I don’t even dare to dream abt getting luxury brands anymore. In the past I would have forked out $82 for that shampoo but now I actually rejected it without much hesitation.

That advice from E really knocked a lot of sense into me and actually make me feel better. ” Its just her way of making herself feel better”. She’s a gal too, so I don’t think she’s wrong eh?

I missed the late night chats and sharing of daily stuffs with a good friend. It really really puzzles me why after being back to normal close terms, we drift apart again for a few weeks to months? This vicious cycle just kept repeating itself. I used to think its my fault..but now I seriously have no idea. I’m just too tired to think or blame myself. What difference are we from acquaintances now?

A vid to end off my last ever post in this blog.

Sooner or later, I’m gonna be like Howard Hughes or Axl Rose and live in obscurity if this carry on.

sugar sugar

Wanted to upload the pics at Sentosa that I went to during halloween but oh well internet has been down for  2 weeks and counting..

 

Really gotta thank those who have helped me prepare for my 1st day at work..though actually there wasn’t much to prepare. Gotta thank those who call/sms me on my 1st day of work to ask how am I doing. Fuck I love all of you !

 

My internet’s down and CK’s phone is spoilt. I can’t contact her and she can’t contact me. what a bummer

 

You know what? I definitely deserves better

101109

This blog will be deleted wef 101109. Don’t bother finding out how am I doing etc in my life from here. If you guys are interested, pls call me. I hate interacting in cyberspace anyway..loss of personal touch.

New phase of life starts on 021109. I can foresee losing contact with a lot of friends, be it treasured ones or hypocrites.

Just 6 months back, I was a person full of confidence. Now I’m just beat and broken down.

Ready a not

The time was 7.05pm. Eugene was on a bus to meet his friend at tampines when he received a call from tett. ” Eugene faster get down to Fort Canning now !”. All Eugene could say was ” hey man I didn’t get the tix for the gig “. ” Vernon has got 2 spare tix ! ” was the reply from tett. ” eh I already have an appointment already..you guys enjoy ! “. My face might look straight at that moment, but in my mind I was punching my own face.  FML

Another boyband from my secondary school memories. All my other friends digged ‘ like a rose ‘ but I’ve always preferred this song.

分分鐘需要你

Was stoning at home on a late Saturday afternoon before Ethel saved my day with a text. The feeling was weird and kinda messed up when I’m at home on a Saturday with no plans.

Then it was beer, wine, fags and fish and chips at barks cafe. While I was having my fish and chips, I saw someone opposite me having their spaghetti. Suddenly I lost all interest in my own food. Gotta change this bad habit of mine.

I hope to have more meetups with friends next week. If I do not have to start my work on thurs, I think I will go help zs to paint his walls. Anything just to get out of the house. I’m also looking forward to the voluntary work next sat

This song never fails to bring tears to my eyes whenever its played in the drama.

真的爱你

Finally managed to catch this movie after so long. Heard rave reviews from friends who have caught this movie and indeed I wasn’t disappointed. For those women that wants to know more abt guys, you could pick up some tips from here. I do agree on most points and it really apply to most of the male species. I’m glad to say I ain’t one of them though

Pretty old MV but still kick ass song. Most people in general thinks Beyond is an ‘ ah beng ‘ band but I seriously can’t be bothered with morons. In case you have no idea, this song is about a mother’s love.

无法可修饰的一对手
带出温暖永远在背后
纵使啰囌始终关注
不懂珍惜太内疚
沉醉於音阶她不讚赏
母亲的爱却永未退让
决心冲开心中挣扎
亲恩终可报答

春风化雨暖透我的心
一生眷顾无言地送赠
是你多么温馨的目光
教我坚毅望着前路
叮嘱我　跌倒不应放弃
没法解释怎可报尽亲恩
爱意宽大是无限
请准我
说声真的爱你

无法可修饰的一对手
带出温暖永远在背后
纵使啰囌始终关注
不懂珍惜太内疚
仍记起温馨的一对手
始终给我照顾未变样
理想今天终於等到
分享光辉盼做到

I missed the late nights chat with a special friend but…..

I can still remember just 1 and a half months back I had a lot of plans for a certain appointment. The appointment was broken twice and then it wont ever happen again. Used to think how I could make that day so beautiful and …….. However now it seems maybe we would just be strangers. This time round however I feel and know I’m in no wrong. If you asked me do I feel bitter? Yes. Do I feel resentful towards that person? No.

funny people

Caught this movie earlier with weixun at Film Garde. Pretty decent movie..be warned though its not your usual comedy. It does actually have some sense and meaning. I do dig this kind of movie though

Trying to catch up with everyone before I start on my job. Ha ha I’m talking as if I’ve been confirmed for a job already.

So far I’ve met up with some if not most of my friends and closed ones. I’m still trying to arrange a day where ZS, Chris, Hujo, Xinwei and me can sit down for dinner and after dinner activities. Its kinda hard to organise when everyone has conflicting schedules.

Over the past weeks, I’ve also met up with LQ, weixun, davin and zhixin. Now all thats left is joel, yessy and audrey.

Another interview later..bummers.

Supersonic

Interview went pretty well I guess. Let me share more about this job which I’ve been interviewed for.

Pros – 5 days work week, big company, chances of OT is very very low and I get to learn a lot of stuffs.

Cons – The place where I will be assigned to is all the way in the west and its really not an easily accessible place. Camera handphones are not allowed. The main issue is still the time taken to travel to that place.

Its like I probably gonna have to wake up around 5 in the morning on weekdays so I think I’m going to have no social life on weekdays. I kinda dread the feeling of losing touch with most of my friends. Some of them I already have problem meeting up with them often and some I guess I won’t even have the chance to hang out with them ever in my lifetime. At least this means my time would probably be spent on people thats worthy of it and have always been there for me.

Looking on the bright side, this time round I’m surprised that I’ve been so focused on this career path. I have to admit over the past few months my mental strength has greatly improved thanks to friends. I used to be so weak mentally. Guess I will just grit my teeth and get the experience I need..time and distance should not prove to be an obstacle to me.

I used to forgive and forget easily. Now I can forgive but forget? I’m really going to need more time but one thing for sure, I don’t bear grudges.

Every rose has its thorn

Job Interview in another 14 hours time. Not many people know about my job interview..probably around 5 person? I sure do hope I get the job. I need the money and also the job to occupy myself with. Wish me luck !

Thanks Chris for the tie and for accompanying me to my haircut.

Thanks Zhi Shen for the bag.

Thanks Ethel for helping me to print out my job application form and resume.

Thanks Mavis my hairstylist for offering to style my hair later before my job interview but I guess I won’t be taking you up on your offer.

Brings back some memories doesn’t it?

All that I need

Boyzone singer Stephen Gately has died while on holiday in Majorca at the age of just 33, bringing an end to a varied and successful career on stage.

Gately was born in Ireland in March 1976 and joined Boyzone in 1993 after answering an advert in Dublin to audition for the country’s first boy band.

Sharing lead vocals with Ronan Keating, the band enjoyed huge success with 17 top five singles – six of them number ones, including All That I Need in 1998.

When the group split in 2000, the line-up – which also included band mates Mikey Graham, Keith Duffy and Shane Lynch – had achieved four number one albums – Said and Done, A Different Beat, Where We Belong, and By Request.

Gately was the first of the disbanded group to embark on a solo project and saw his first single New Beginning, from the album of the same name, climb to number three in the UK singles charts.

He witnessed further top 20 success with the singles Stay in 2001 and I Believe in 2000, which featured on the soundtrack of the film Billy Elliot, before being dropped by Polydor in 2001.

Gately went on to forge a successful career on the West End stage in a series of musicals, taking the lead role in Joseph & The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, and playing the Child Catcher in Chitty Chitty Bang Bang.

After a string of pantomime and musical appearances, Gately appeared on ITV’s Dancing on Ice in 2007. With his dancing partner Kristina Lenko, the pair made it to eighth place before bowing out.

Adored by millions of female fans, Gately sent ripples through the pop music world in 1999 when he announced that he was gay.

In 2006 he married his long-term partner Andrew Cowles in a civil partnership ceremony in London in 2006. The pair were on holiday together on the Spanish island when he died.

Gately had enjoyed renewed success with Boyzone after the band reformed in 2008 and released the compilation album Back Again… No Matter What, featuring the bands greatest hits as well as new material including the tracks Love You Anyway, Better and Can’t Stop Thinking About You.

The band were planning on bringing out a new album in 2010 but their recent 19-date Better tour failed to fill stadiums, despite offers of free tickets.

In recent years, Gately had been writing a children’s fantasy novel called The Tree of Seasons. His last message on the social networking site Twitter, posted on 6 October, said: “Still busy – lots going on. Focusing on finishing my book next so may be quiet here.”

RIP

Many people might not know but I used to listen to a lot of pop stuffs when I was in secondary school, especially boybands like Boyzone, Westlife, Backstreet Boys and N Sync.

My fav song by them. I can still remembered playing this song back and forth in my discman during my secondary school days. Ha ha discman..tsk tsk memories.